How does one heal heart of a broken land? How does one determine good and evil when faced with society that regards little of morality over progress? Many taught from birth what is right and what is wrong, what is success and what is failure. Does good or evil exist when bias lessons taught from birth exist? Kroznaks knows war. Was born in it, and society teach to aspire to be great at killing so one can survive and protect what is theirs. Anything yours if you can take, and great good can come from subjugate weaker peoples to make them strong.
Hate thinking about this. Convinced no right answer. Netheril is broken like other places broken. We fight and fight and fight and fight for what? We cannot save those who've been killed and all we do is prevent tide of undead from swallow us. Seen more wrong in last few months than ever in life. So much loss of life, and some of it not even act of enemy. Where is victory when it is obtained through defile the dead and sacrifice living? Why keep fighting for something so broken and rotten? All Kroznaks do is fight to live and keep alive society that no care about him. Bleed and broken against armies of horrors to protect them, but can see they still hate him when look into their eyes. Still know they spit when see him, and can hear them say 'savage' or call him pig-face while they bring whip against his friends.
Friends worth fighting for, but they grow and do more good than Kroznaks ever do. Kroznaks good at kill monsters, but not make law or change world, just kill. Does Selune need brute to kill and maim for her? Think not. Where is she when her most devout cannot even follow her decree? Knight-Captains cannot even see past their own prejudice, Pariah tainted by land's way of thinking too. Good people, but still broken, short of example they wish to be. Her light touches us, but it is very dark here.
No direction and no sight. So much war and death and pain that it is easy to lose meaning for it all. Witness so much horror that can do nothing about. Gain nothing, only prevent more losses. Zero-sum game. Watch people die because fear of death. Watch so much evil happen because we want to fight greater evil. Just stand there and do nothing? Fight in war where sacrifice meaningless? Wait for chance to die for nothing?
Kroznaks tired