Mother gave me this book years ago. She said it would be good to record my thoughts and experiences here at the Laurent Estate so I could look back upon them when I eventually returned home. This is the first time I’ve opened it. My parents sent me here to straighten me up. According to them, I was lazy, reckless, overweight, easily distracted, liked to wander, enjoyed luxury too much and associated with the wrong people. They'd never tolerate even one of those things in my siblings but time and again I was able to dodge any consequences. At first I thought I was pretty clever, but once I hit my teens I realised I could do just about anything and my parents wouldn't do much about it.
I was a nuisance to my family, and I didn't think much of them either. My parents are Lord Leon and Lady Apolline Sadardiel, first generation nobles. They insisted we all introduce ourselves as 'lord' or 'lady', even little Valentin. This makes me Lady Manon Sadardiel, fourth in line to the Sadardiel estate. It's pretentious rubbish, but I happily exploit being a noble at every opportunity. My father's nickname is "the Lion", at least he calls himself that. Just to drive the point home he's covered the estate in lion statues and paintings. Mother's a tireless worker and bookkeeper and that's about all there is to say about her. She has no life at all outside of the estate and family. I have her hair but little else. My oldest brother Nael might just be the worst of the lot... intelligent, handsome, powerful, charming... ugh. How is that fair? Then there's the twins Anais and Yanis who think nothing matters but competing with each other. Gods, we're doomed if either of those idiots inherit the estate. Valentin's all right I suppose, but he's going to grow up just like the others.
Anyway I finally crossed my parents' invisible line of tolerance when I was 15. They found out (thanks to Anais and Yanis shadowing me and snitching) I'd been hanging out with cultists camping by Lake Vyctoria. They called themselves the Order of the Ascended Lady and worshipped some dead woman the lake is named after. To me they were silly and harmless but my parents decided I'd gone too far and needed a firm hand to guide me. They sent me east to the estate of Lord Druon Laurent, an Imperial army comrade of my father. I was told Laurent was a fierce and strict father with equally spartan sons. He was a mighty ranger and would teach me the hard life of fieldcraft and survival. My parents told me if I didn't knuckle down I was in for a nightmare. Instead, these have been the best years of my life.
Druon (he insisted I not address him as 'Lord') reframed everything I'd believed and been told about myself. I was bored, not lazy. Bold, not reckless. Robust, not fat. Perceptive, not easily distracted. He took me under his wing and trained me personally. Accepting that I'm heavy and a little clumsy, he trained me in trapping and surveillance rather than sneaking and concealment. He introduced me to his faith, that of Kozah, and said unlike his sons I had the right frame of mind to follow it. His boys were tough warriors though, and I learned I could rely on them in a scrap. Druon trusted me completely, and allowed me to read all the correspondence my family sent him. I was rarely mentioned in it and my father spent most of the letters complaining about ogres. Taking note of this, Druon trained me in how to deal with large opponents. I came of age here at the Laurent estate, and spent the night with Druon's sons getting drunk and roaming the town. Truly, I finally felt I belonged somewhere.
I should have known my parents couldn't allow that. Today Druon received a letter from my mother. For the first time he refused to allow me to read what they sent. Instead he insisted I immediately pack my things and prepare to travel back "home" to the Sardardiel estate. I was furious, this is my home now! But whatever he read had unnerved him. He mouthed the name "Nael" as he read. I suspect my magnificent, good at everything and loved by all oldest brother has convinced my parents to take me back. I'll give him a piece of my mind about this. Maybe some bruises too!
My things are packed and I've boarded the carriage. Druon gave me a fine cloak to take with me. While I wait for the driver I've written all this down. I'm going to take mother's advice and look back on it some day and get all pissed off at my family all over again. Kozah take them, I was happy. And now I'm back to their haven of judgemental and pretentious fools. What the hell could have been so important for them to forget how much they hate me and drag me back home to them?